orange hills

Imagine an empty room with a chair in the middle and a lonely window through which the morning light shines in. He was in that room then and he was not alone. On the chair sat a beautiful young angel with only a bed sheet to clothe her. Her back was the only part of her body that was uncovered and he stood a little to the side next to his camera. She glanced at him as he took the picture then quickly turned away with the shyness of a deer. He took a picture once more then slowly walked toward her. He ran his hand through her hair, slightly placing a few curls on her shoulder.

She looked at him again, for a moment longer this time, then asked „What is it? Do you think it would be better like this?”.

„I only wanted to run my hand through your hair...” he replied.

A silence filled the room...

They stared at each other for a few minutes then she suddenly blushed and he stepped back. It was obvious to both of them that something had happened. And they both knew that what would happen from that moment onward would create a complicated situation.

You see, they were both meant for one and other and everyone noticed that, but there was a problem. She had a boyfriend who was also his friend and they both knew that if they did anything they would both betray that man. So they continued pretending that everything was alright. He took a few more pictures and she silently sat there. Nothing but the noise of the shutter echoed through the room. Then suddenly it stopped.

„What are you doing?”, she asked. He said nothing.

She asked again, „What happened?”. He again gave no reply.

She dared not to look back towards him for she feared that he might have left. Then suddenly she felt his hand on her back and quickly closed her eyes thinking she imagined it. But when she opened them he was standing right in front of her. She looked at him and saw the love in his eyes. He caressed her cheek and whispered in her ear.

„I fell in love with you. I was not sure whether to tell you or not until today, until you looked at me before.”.

„I love you too, but I am afraid... What will happen to us? What will happen to him? I cannot leave him, not now...”.

„But someday you could?”.

„When he will be in better shape, maybe yes. But I do not know when that day will be...”.

„It does not matter. I will wait for you however long it takes. You make me feel safe, happy. You understand me better than anyone else. And I will always love you.”.

„No. You know very well that someone else will always come your way and you will fall in love with that person...”.

„You are wrong my love. Someone did appear and I thought that maybe she would be the one that would make me happy again but I cannot do anything for her. I cannot drop everything and go to her like I do for you. She cannot change me like you did. She cannot make me better, like you did... I am sure of this. It is you who I love and who I will always love” then he kissed her.

She stood up and embraced him. They stood there kissing, holding each other and talking for hours.

By the time they realized that they were gone since the morning, night came. So they walked to the door. But once there they couldn't bare to let go of each other. They sat down on a mattress and kissed...

Nu mai stiu nimic decat un singur lucru: te iubesc!. Ce va fi nu mai stiu. Nu mai indrznesc sa visez, sa ma mai las purtat de imaginatie, sa mai traiesc in ireal. Incerc sa revin la realitate, sa ating macar cu degetele pamantul. Tot ce voi face de acum incolo voi face sa ne multumesc pe amandoi, mie sa imi pot asigura un viitor decent iar pe tine sa te fac mandra de mine. Nu pot zice ca nu voi mai gresi fiindca stim amandoi ca se va intampla. Pot doar sa incerc sa nu o mai fac, cel putin atat de des. Si cred ca imi va reusi, si in timp, poate, nu voi mai gresi deloc si poate vei vedea in mine un om mult mai bun. Totul e in mainile mele si trebuie sa am grija sa nu fiu neindemanatic iarasi. Sper sa te fac mandra.

Draga mea,

Sunt departe de tine, pierdut in marea de oameni ce ne inconjoara. Zilele trec precum secolele. Ma plimb pe strada, ma uit la lume si nu vad nimic interesant. Uneori mai vad cate un cuplu fericit si imediat ma gandesc la noi doi, la cum radem impreuna, la cum ne jucam, cum ne tachinam... Stau si ma gandesc la tine in fiecare clipa a zilei, te vad peste tot, te aud tot timpul... Dar acea durere a nesigurantei a disparut. Anxietatea care o simteam mai demult a facut loc unui sentiment linistit si placut. Acum stiu ca te voi avea langa mine, ca ne vom plimba si noi candva precum acele cupluri. Tot ce trebuie sa fac acum este sa stau si sa astept, sa te astept sa vi sa imi zici "Te iubesc! Hai cu mine.", iar eu voi veni. Toate aceste clipe de asteptare vor fi meritat in final. Vom savura impreuna acele momente frumoase, vom zambi la lume si noua insine, vom dansa in ploaie si ne vom bate in zapada, vom bea cafea si ciocolata calda, vom cutreiera strazile oraselor boeme cu aparatele in mana, ne vom saruta lung si ne vom juca cu degtele, ne vom imbaia picioarele in apa sarata a marii si ne vom scutura de nisipul uscat de soare.
Pana acele momente vor fi numai ale noastre, eu voi sta aici si te voi astpeta iubita mea.

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